i'm not jealous or anything. i promised*
it's just, i find it unfair.
well, i know life is unfair. so i'm just whining. please bear with me.

i don't know what good is one for one to deserve almost all the best things in life. is it luck? is it destiny? or is it just fate? or even, man-made? i don't know. but i just feel unfair.

i'm not saying my life sucks or what but in comparison, slight off. i wonder why. is it bcos i haven't been doing enough good? or is it bcos i dont really treat ppl with sincerity?

seriously, longyu commented before, i dont really treat people with sincerity. she could be true. maybe due to the fact that i need warm up period with ppl. i don't open up so easily. i speak out easily but i dont reveal my true feelings easily. i dont trust easily because i'm thought not to and people around arn't seem to be who they are.

you know, sometimes i really can't be bothered. ya, let's take this as a transition period. my adjusting period. haha. maybe i'm really lagged, hence my adjusting period only comes now. i feel the alien-ness in the env i am living in now. i know i can adapt but how long does it take for me to flex, i'm not too sure. hopefully it'll be quick. bcos currently i'm in the "i cant be bothered" stage. which means, it's a period where i'll make many enemies. haha. let's just see, how long i'll take to adapt.


























i need a motivation to go to school.
will someone be my motivator? : (
i miss my jc life(without XXX, of cos) i miss my secondary crazy days i miss my sillyness i miss my innocence i miss my slacking hours i miss my books, tables and chairs i miss my gossips i miss my eye candies i miss my routine school hours i miss my travelling from home to school i miss my school uniform i miss my school bag i miss those times when i dont have to care what people think of me i miss times when i can just laugh at anything at anytime with anyone i miss those times when i can just scold one in front of that person i miss times when people is envious of the friends around me i miss those times i can walk around school jumping from classes to classes i miss those times my classmates made a fool out of my teachers i miss those times when i can skip school as and when i like i miss those times where i tease my classmates and they'll blush i miss those times when i can play basketball for the whole day i miss those times when i hang around the beach just being myself but what i miss most i think, is being myself.




































as of November7th

最长的电影歌词
作词：周杰伦　
作曲：周杰伦

我们的开始　
是很长的电影放映了三年　
我票都还留着冰上的芭蕾　
脑海中还在旋转望着你　
慢慢忘记你朦胧的时间　
我们溜了多远冰刀划的　
圈起了谁改变如果再重来　
会不会稍嫌狼狈

爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟　
让我把记忆结成冰别
融化了眼泪　
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　
不是因为在乎

November8th

i can't believe i was vexed over this again.
but i still can't believe my expectations is high.
i'm serious. i'm dead serious.
i don't believe. but i think, it was proven too high for some. or should i say, for most of my friends?
trust is hard to gain. once gain, i'll give everything yet, i was commented as someone i wasn't. EVER WAS, that is.

fine den. i shan't expect much from you.
i never should, anyway.
sueann yao! be proud. hahah cos you're the only one so far, who hasn't been lower than my expectation!