27th July 2007, my granny, as in my father's mother, passed away at the age of 96.
my family and i had to leave for malaysia to attend her funeral. so we left singapore on early sunday morning.

however on saturday, i wanted to buy shirts from bugis village. so i smsed sueann and when she didn't reply, i made a fuss to noven. i don't think i was wrong lah but just treat it as momental emotion spill ok darling? so in the end, i did meet her and kohting. hur. and we took neoprints! i'll wait till kohting send me the photo then i upload 'em here. : D

and then, disaster happened. my gastric and stomach hurt me all through saturday night. *moans. by sunday morning, i was jelled. but i managed to survive till tuesday night, back in singapore to see a decent doctor. i refused to visit a doctor in malaysia, reason being - the last time i had swollen feet due to a bug bite, the doctor there said i had to amputate my feet while the doctor in singapore gave me a jab and my feet healed. tell me about it. - . -

suppositely, a funeral of anyone who pass away at or above the age of 80 should be made glamourously. don't know why, but my granny's funeral was made to be a sad one. all the taoists priests, chantings and those incense, oh my goodness. it's as though my stomach was not giving me enough trouble, they had to make me cough and choke. i understand, it's my granny's funeral. i'm just not very open to incense alright and those hard clappings of the instruments behind my ear.
the whole funeral on the last night took 6 hours. 7pm till almost 1am. oh and i'm blue! first generation - white. second - blue. third - yellow and fourth - red. then the next morning, wearing the same sticky shirt, we went to send my granny off for burial. by then, it was monday afternoon, because of ceremonies.

these days, my gastric was hurting already. so by tuesday night, i rushed home and visited 24hour clinic. darn the doctor said i had stomach ulcer. my sister was skeptical, "he press press press, how to tell if you have ulcer?"
wednesday, watched transformer in vivo and then gastric hurt again. the seats in vivo wasn't as comfortable as the cathay. = / my mother got the news and came back to singapore the following night.

thursday. first day of school but i only turned up for 30minutes. early in the morning, i see a doctor again. but the pain killer didn't work. so i took cab home from SIM. 15 bucks. heart pain. haha. vomit, and stomach was so painful that i visited SGH. jab, x ray, urine test blah blah. aye. story so long. in short, my mother wanted me to be admited but the doctor say if i am admited, i will have to do the telescope thingy which will hurt and cost a lot. so, we decided to stay home and see if i can recover on my own. and blahblah. so now i'm still on medication. stomach still hurts sometimes, many things i can't eat or drink and all. but at least, i feel much better. : )

yes darling yao i missed out that full of **** part. WILL NOT MENTION IT. IDIOT.

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as for this week. has been quite packed.
tuition resumes of course, i need cash in. i'm pretty broke.
movie, i watched ALONE yesterday with kohting and sueann.
hahahhaa. we three girls were kinda scared during the show.
ALONE, not bad nar. i think it's much better than Shutter. although many scenes are "as usual" kind but at least, it made an impact.

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for three weeks i haven't attended choir, opps. i feel rather guilty over it.
alright, i will return asap.
i missed many cell group studies too. sorry~
but really, was occupied with valid reasons.

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well at least during this period, i sort out my feelings.
when one feels that it's hopeless to continue the way it was, then emotions will be rid away. in fact, you feel nothing. totally nothing.

i mean, i said before.
it didn't come without forewarns.
you didn't bother, or should i say you think too confidently.

you will never stand a chance, unless you change.
but like i said,
it seems impossible for you to chance.
a leopard can't change its spots. so true.