my mom is really annoying. she just can't see that i need sleep recently and it has been really hard to get up from my bed for the early tutoring. she wants me to accompany her to CPF building tomorrow morning at 8. like mrs wong ah, i need to be at tutee's house at 930. which means i have most prob have to leave CPF building at 855. so rush! so annoying lah! can't she just do it herself? i have to do my stuffs alone now also what. what the hell. moms. and now she's throwing tantrum on me.

"叫你做一点事你就给我这种脸... ..."
"啊~ 又发脾气. 无了."
"我不要听到这些 ... ..."
"你哪一天没有发脾气咯."

so because of this. i have to hurry blog and head on looking for my dreams.
anyway, i went for a haircut just now. sueann yao accompanied me while i accompanied her to see the doctor. ironically, her consultation with the doctor was much shorter than my hairdresser cutting my hair. and all i wanted was thinning my hair and shortening my fringe. lol. it's expensive! $16. but she is meticulous. so, -shrugs. nonetheless, i feel so much lighter on my head. i bet i feel much cooler too.

past updates

recently there's this couple of humming birds that took a fond on my neighbour's plant and built its nest on it. everyday, my mom will go and take a peek at the nest. my mom seemed like the mommy humming bird kay. she will go and look look look poke poke poke touch touch touch. my neighbour often complain but, you know my damn mom, annoying and unreasonably stubborn. then one day, she went to take a peek again. but this time round, she couldn't see them clearly. the birdies were hiding its head. so my mom went to lift the leave up and 2 of the birdes(who somehow know how to fly already) flew out, while another 2(one who can only hop, the other one can fly 40 cm of ground and 40 cm forward only) fell off. my neighbour heard my mom scream and came out to help. she catch the one who hopped and left it on the soil of the plant while my mom tried catching the one who can half fly. here comes the sad and frustrating part. the hopped one somehow managed to escape the pot of plant and got lost. it is believed that it died, without the recovering of its small lil fragile body. as for the other one. kay. listen. i was watching my shaman king on my computer. suddenly i felt a thump on my ass. i couldn't be bothered. cause i thought it just some, you know. then, i heard a chirp. my eyes went blank. i looked down and there it is, staring at me with its wide small eyes and chirp again. I TOTALLY FREAKED OUT. i screamed for what seemed like 30s and had the pillow on my face, crying already! i didn't even dared to move a cm! before i knew it, i was lost. i was shivering like mad. went to the room and hide. i immediately changed also. then my mom found it under my dad's sewing machine. like what the hell. luckily it's hummingbird. if it's crow i tell you i'll kill myself. then, that day, that poor lil bird had no food. my dad went to buy it food next morning. but we weren't sure if it's the right worm cos the worm has hard covering. anyway my mom fed it. then it was alright. only until the the next day(the loud thunder and horrible lightning that night), the lil birdie was found dead. my mom so sad. she felt so guilty also. and i purposely went 人类是大自然的凶手 who asked her to do those silly things.

and nicole received her NUS admission letter. so did many others. those who are rejected and accepted. only people like me and xuewen still hanging with suspense, not sure if we are accepted. sigh. i guess we might be substitutes. nonetheless, i feel like there's no more chance and can only depend on NTU. if NTU also cannot, the SIM. but it'll be the intake next year. bleh. seriously i can't be bothered. i know i prayed. i placed it in God's hand. no matter what, i can blame no body right? since i have already lazed my way through A's why not i lazed through the rest of my life too. hahaaa. well. okay loh. if i can get into U i make sure i do well. why? because i'm sick of letting people look down on me. that kind of "sickness" you'll never understand.

and also, i'm so disgusted. some people just keep thinking my MSN nick is for them to see. like what the hell. can you be more self conscious? like, who are you to me that you can actually qualify for a place in my heart/thoughts? -pukes. know where you stand alright?

as for that silly dumb guy. he's outta my life. lol. i doubt he knows. afterall, just the day before, i was telling him he still has a bit of time and now , here i am stoppping the time . sigh . too bad loh. i feel much better this way . afterall, singlehood ain't that bad eh? hahaha

oh samuel, shi jia and me went to harry's ytd. didn't call lulu along cause she was busy with her SYF. but before that we went to sam's house for dinner. freeloaders freeloaders. hahaa. not too bad and didn't spend a lot ah on drinking. i think. 24 per person. i guess i was alright? a juggie, a glass of cocktail and spagettie. sam and shi jia drank till their face were like tomato! hahhaha so amusing. but luckily they didn't get drunk. like i said, say it nicely- you're my responsibility. but in actual fact, it meant - you're my burden. hahahaaaa! let's drink again someday! yumyum.

my running schedules and swimming schedules are off track already. hahahaa. yes. fats collating. incredible how fats can grow so quickly! hoho. recently kept falling sick. fever, flu, sorethroat. suck man. despite being sick, my appetite has been growing. i believe im pregnant. mentally. that's why i keep eating. urgh. control. control. I HATE DOING THINGS THAT REQUIRES DETERMINATION.